ownly notes 2

Charlotte-  Sometimes I get really out of control and I don't feel lke I can contain myself.  It feels like the only way I can get relief is by being self distructive, taking something and smashing it on the ground.   Sometimes a mess is the only sanity there is, the broken choas of being alive and feel the fire that I make.  I feel like I have thrust myself so far out of control that I am trying to make up for what I have already done while just desiring to get by.  It is so funny the insainity that we hand ourselves in place of common sense.  I am not sure what common sense even is to be quite honest.