Everything starts now.
Not that my world is so horrible, but I know it will be better upside down and understood by a stranger. It is this desire, to be transformed by understanding, that has pretty much propelled me through every single day since 1996. See you there. –Miranda July
It is essential for your wellbeing to sort out what influences in your life are nourishing and which are depleting. This is not as easy as it seems in a society where it is considered normal for people to eat unhealthy food for the sake of eating, have relationships for the sake of relationships, and purchase many things that they don’t need and barely even want. Since that is the cultural standard, it’s necessary to take the time to figure out whether something you take in- be it food, entertainment, information, family influences, or emotional contact- actually sustains you. It would be worthwhile to consider this question in the context of any sexual influences as well. I think the concept of “addiction” is overused and misunderstood, but it begins to have meaning when there is the quality of some influence potentially controlling your life. If during the next few weeks you find yourself at a full stop, or feel like you can no longer effectively negotiate with yourself, that’s the time to take some time and inquire about the issue of control. There is often an associated issue about whether you want the responsibility implied by self-determination. The most common reason I’ve seen people abandon their power is because it seems to offer liberation from the consequences of their own mistakes. That’s one form of liberation that will never serve you.
To be, or not to be, that is the question—
Whether 'tis Nobler in the mind to suffer
The Slings and Arrows of outrageous Fortune,
Or to take Arms against a Sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them? To die, to sleep—
No more; and by a sleep, to say we end
The Heart-ache, and the thousand Natural shocks
That Flesh is heir to? 'Tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wished. To die, to sleep,
To sleep, perchance to Dream; Aye, there's the rub,
For in that sleep of death, what dreams may come,
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause. There's the respect
That makes Calamity of so long life:
For who would bear the Whips and Scorns of time,
The Oppressor's wrong, the proud man's Contumely,
The pangs of despised Love, the Law’s delay,
The insolence of Office, and the Spurns
That patient merit of the unworthy takes,
When he himself might his Quietus make
With a bare Bodkin? Who would these Fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,
But that the dread of something after death,
The undiscovered Country, from whose bourn
No Traveler returns, Puzzles the will,
And makes us rather bear those ills we have,
Than fly to others that we know not of.
Thus Conscience does make Cowards of us all,
And thus the Native hue of Resolution
Is sicklied o'er, with the pale cast of Thought,
And enterprises of great pitch and moment,
With this regard their Currents turn awry,
And lose the name of Action. Soft you now,
The fair Ophelia. Nymph, in all thy Orisons
Be thou all my sins remembered.
Whether 'tis Nobler in the mind to suffer
The Slings and Arrows of outrageous Fortune,
Or to take Arms against a Sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them? To die, to sleep—
No more; and by a sleep, to say we end
The Heart-ache, and the thousand Natural shocks
That Flesh is heir to? 'Tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wished. To die, to sleep,
To sleep, perchance to Dream; Aye, there's the rub,
For in that sleep of death, what dreams may come,
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause. There's the respect
That makes Calamity of so long life:
For who would bear the Whips and Scorns of time,
The Oppressor's wrong, the proud man's Contumely,
The pangs of despised Love, the Law’s delay,
The insolence of Office, and the Spurns
That patient merit of the unworthy takes,
When he himself might his Quietus make
With a bare Bodkin? Who would these Fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,
But that the dread of something after death,
The undiscovered Country, from whose bourn
No Traveler returns, Puzzles the will,
And makes us rather bear those ills we have,
Than fly to others that we know not of.
Thus Conscience does make Cowards of us all,
And thus the Native hue of Resolution
Is sicklied o'er, with the pale cast of Thought,
And enterprises of great pitch and moment,
With this regard their Currents turn awry,
And lose the name of Action. Soft you now,
The fair Ophelia. Nymph, in all thy Orisons
Be thou all my sins remembered.
Can I get a witness program. Next step to Project Zero, get people to see my work.
Post conversation with Tyler-
1. Write for myself
2. Movie is a good story
3. Mesmerizing is my talent
4. Doc about saving the earth would eat my life
Happiness = reality – expectations
I can succeed despite myself as long as I surround myself with smart people.
My goal is to act on my outrageous impulses.
People are like meds, we need to make each other better.
Don’t look at it as money, look at it as desire.
Multimedia Director- Gesamtkunstwerk- total work of art
An artwork complete in itself, in which partial contributions of the related and collaborating arts blend together, disappear, and, in disappearing, somehow form a new world.
A work of art should be Breathtaking- astonishing or awe-inspiring in quality, so as to take one’s breath away.
Interview philosophers, take one idea and unfold it, themes like RadioLab but for culture, ideas, and mass-production.
Faith is taking the first step even when you can’t see the whole staircase. –MLK
Project Obfuscate
I want to make a TV show that is educational, ethical, informative. Museum TV that unfolds what is covered at the New Museum in a way that is youthful and interesting, like MTV for ART. Matthew Barney and different art stars.
Elimination Diet:
No coffee, alcohol, dairy, eggs, sugar, shellfish, deep water fish, potatoes, tomatoes, bell peppers, eggplants, corn, wheat, meat – Dr. Alexandro Junder, Dr. Habib Sadegh
7am wake-up
Warm tea with lemon and cayenne and maple
1 bottle of water
11am snack
Raw Kale
1 bottle of water
1pm lunch
Run
Lots of tea
1 bottle of water
2pm snack
Kale, water
20 min. meditation
30 minute run, 20 minute meditation
8-9 hours of sleep
Go to bed at 10:30
A Cruel and Shocking Act- The Secret History of the Kennedy Assassination by Philip Shenon
Living and Sustaining a Creative Life by Sharon Louden
Miniature pop-up sleep-cave, fuzzy blow-up pad with pillow
The world doesn’t owe you anything, you owe the world something. So stop daydreaming and start DOING. Develop a backbone, not a wishbone. Take full responsibility for your life- take control. You are important and you are needed. It’s too late to sit around and wait for somebody to do something someday. Someday is now.
http://www.worthytoshare.net/10-things-youre-going-regret-10-years-dont-say-werent-warned
Get out there and make a difference. Realize the power you are.
Topic: the hiding of celb tats. The privacy of public img.
Love what is ahead by loving what has come before.
When you know that all is light, you are enlightened.
The organic suchness of being.
Renewal always and truth in all of it.
You do it on your own, and if it’s not on your own, it won’t mean anything.
What if a performance space was created like a museum. Membership for a year, just show up whenever.
I am just a stumbling willful vagabond, grasping at the edges of ecstasy.
Something that touched everyone.
Meaning is a proposition, not an assurance. Meaning is also the name of a nomadic tribe who offer wares to anyone open to conversation.
Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever. –Gandhi
Life is a chance. Love is an infinity. Grace is a reality.
The utopia of friendship is the most important utopia.
Today made me see the play on a whole new plane of possibility. It could be so full. Full of life and full I n general! Excited to see what you come up with, especially costume-wise.
Cheers,
Tyler
Was it a thing at all? That’s what the newspapers were busy yattering about- was it a real thing or just a light, a scene or just a seen, something there or just something here, a trick of the light, lusus luminis, will-o-the-wisp, ignis fatuus, methane burning in the middle of that junkyard we call the sky. –Robert Kelly
Alexander R. Galloway- Excommunication: Three Inquiries in Media and Mediation
Museum education- Public Engagement Department
Certain people always say we should go back to nature. I notice they never say we should go forward to nature. It seems to me they are more concerned that we should go back, than about nature. –Adolph Gottlieb
Unconscious Processing of our Brain –Dan Dennet
Determinism- want to start at what we already know
Libertarianism of Freedom and Resentment – Wilfred Sellers
Derrida on Paintintg- the frame as a false accusation
Benjamin- art in the age of reproduction
Send stickers of my work out to coffee shops, record stores, schools, collages, universities, juice stores. Ask people if they know of anything or anywhere where the work can by shown or if they want a copy, to email monologues@gmail.com $20-$25 paypal, write to stores to see if they will carry the film, submit to festivals etc.
Titles for movies/episodes- Everyone is Somebodies Friend- Webseries
Land of hearts desire, where beauty has no ebb, decay no flood, but joy is wisdom, time an endless song.
Nothing Space- It’s not about the space but what happens inside
5-step approach to recharging in a hurry:
Cross-training: regularly shift your activities, example- work on a blog post, answer emails, highlight a scholarly article- keep changing what you’re doing so that you don’t have a chance to get boraed and burn out.
Interval training: alternating high-intensity exercise with conscious rest periods. 20 minutes concentrating on an activity and 5 minutes rest.
Regular exercise: during my 5 minute “rest” periods during my day, I do quick sets of exercises, these can be anything from sit-ups to running in place to complete 7-minute callisthenic workout. If you stick to this routine, you’ll get more than your daily allowance of exercise and break up your day.
Sleep when you need it: Whenever I am tired, and I don’t have a pressing emergency, I simply lie down for 10-15 minute nap. Sometimes I’ll take two or more naps if I’m feeling run down. It takes far less time than running to Starbucks with far greater results.
Inflationary universe scenario- Ludwig Boltzmann
Communication is the response it evokes
I am really good at directing
We don’t make important decisions in our lives for rational reasons very often
Judith Butler- Gender Troubles
Epistemology of the Closet- Eve Kosofsky
Unpacking the Living Room- ads, TV, Living Room Furniture, what does it all mean
Purview- the scope of the influence or concerns of something
Women attribute success to themselves, understand your own success
Something
Douceur de Vivre- the sweetness of life
Pro captu lectoris habent sua fata libelli – according to the capabilities of the reader, books have their destiny
Tete-a-tete
Life is not fair, it’s the job you signed-up for
50 divisions of the cell and it stops – Hayflick limit
60.3 mph- speed of the nervous system, 1 mph- speed of the reward center
Peacemaker, Diplomat, Mediator
Contemplative phil, aesthetic house, apply product to market/institution
Action makes change
If not now than when?
Religious ritual is to produce your own enjoyment- Hegel
Fake/Real- Autobiography Show- Prodigal Sons doc about Oscar Wilde’s child, Sheila Heti- reading How Should a Person Be, In my Mother’s Footsteps on the wall, Tiny Furniture
The greatest lesson in life is to know that even fools are right sometimes. –Winston Churchill
Natural Prosthesis
Ontology of the Body
Questions Regarding Personhood
Discursive Frames
Alexander R. Galloway- Excommunication: Three Inquiries in Media and Mediation
Secrets to better sleep-
Enjoy your faces wisely-one or two cups of coffee in the morning with food in the sunlight which produces serotonin and makes you need less caffeine, cut out caffeine after 2pm because it stays in the system between 8-10 hours.espresso drinces contain about 80 miligrams of caffeine as opposed to coffee’s 140 per serving, green tea has about 25 milligrams per cup and contains L-theanine a calming substance that modulate the effects of the caffeine. Decaf has about 5 milligrams caffeine. Alcohol- earlier is better and with food, drinking late helps you to fall asleep but turns into a stimulant and will wake you up, for each drink put an hour beterrn it and sleep, it takes one hour for the body to metabolize the alcohol, darker wines and liquors seem to have a more of an effect than lighter ones. Nicotine is a stimulant. Go easy on fatty foods.
Shift gears- give yourself an hour to wind down, a hot bath relaxes your muscles, raises your core temp. and when you get out and your temp drops it produces melatonin, lavender oil, lower the temperature in the house, gentle yoga and breathing exercises, light reading or a little TV, Seinfeld style lightness, if you watch TV wear blueblocker glasses, lowlights.com, the TV and computer emit a lot of blue light, the same wavelength that makes the sky blue, it suppresses melatonin.
Lights Out- The darker the bedroom the better for maintaining crucial melatonin levels. Blackout shades, eyemask. Doing the math to relax doesn’t help.
Breath- 4-7-8 breath- place the tip of your tongue against the ridge behind your upper front teeth, breath in through your nose to the count of four, hold your breath to the count of seven, then count out to eight through your mouth, repeat three times.
Don’t rely on meds- If nothing has worked get out of bed and do something relaxing, that is the core of behavioral treatment for insomnia. See a certified behavioral sleep specialist.
Michael Grandner- sleep-medicine researcher at the University of Pennsylvania, Rubin Naiman sleep specialist at the University of Arixona’s Center for Integrative Medicine and coauthor with Andrew Weil of Healthy Sleep, Michael Breus clinical psychologist who specializes in sleep disorders and is the author of Beauty Sleep: Look Younger, Lose Weight, and feel Great Through Better Sleep
If you can fill the unfulfilling minute with 60 seconds worth of distance run…(opening credits, and old man reads ‘If’. Photos of a child growing up, shot of narrator in her rocking chair, she is old, deaf, signs with captions Time is in my hands. Time is on my side. Time is a constant. My time is caused by the earth spinning around the sun. (Pan out to diagram, beautiful, animation of the earth and the sun)(she is dressed in a neon outfit, in black light, or I manipulate her through special effects) ‘The Keeper’ a film by C. Atkinson, what if I chose a new name every time, or let the person screening at the theater choose who I am, could be anyone. It is, I am, their choice. Miss-Advertising- my drag name. The performance of the name. Information about the icon. How to not be a cartoon? Monologues for Orpheus, intended to be viewed small, like a book? In a, almost a, book. The Keep can be shown at film festivals.
IF
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream—and not make dreams your master;
If you can think—and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build ’em up with worn-out tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: “Hold on!”
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings—nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And—which is more—you’ll be a Man, my son!
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream—and not make dreams your master;
If you can think—and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build ’em up with worn-out tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: “Hold on!”
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings—nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And—which is more—you’ll be a Man, my son!
Do you kiss with the authenticity and intrigue that you look at people with?
I love talking. –David
Always. –Tyler
Casavettes, Karajan, Tarkovsky, Ivo Van Hove, Tacita Dean, Bill Viola, Beuys, Smithson
A flexible meeting of individuals who support one another in getting to understand themselves. –Friendship
Family breeds contempt- Mark Weisberg
The people who care for you the most, they provide a forum for you to self-actualize. Who exists in your world for the purpose of consciously (as in willingly) holding space for you to get to know yourself.
Pietas Contenta Lucratur “Industrious Piety Pays”
I am specifically working on a project that explores showing-and-telling between strangers. You may have heard me say (often) this year, “there are no rules in America.” What I mean is that when you are speaking to another human, the only limits to your interaction are the limits that you allow yourself to follow. It’s hard to break the “rules” that stop us from being honest with one another. –I think this was Ariel
I’m getting older. So it everyone. As we age, more and more outside forces work their way into our lives. They tax us without representation. They tax us_with_representation. We are ruled by events we do not control.
At the same time we are enslaved by our own thoughts and habits, formed in innocence but lashed to us over time with unbreakable chains. As we endure tyranny without, our own tyrannical expectations, vices and prejudices ensnare us from within.
If you hold these truths to be self-evident, come to my Declaration of Independence birthday party on Friday, July 6. On a table somewhere will be our document, where everyone can declare independence from whatever is interfering with their life, liberty or pursuit of happiness. Towards the end of the party, we’ll sign it and “send it to the King of England” (which hopefully means burn the sucker if I can figure out where). –Dave Eisenstadter
No one teaches us anything that we don’t teach ourselves – Murry Tinkelman AKA Dad
It’s not the years in your life, but the life in your years that count.
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