Thursday, May 1, 2014

writing notes for From a Distance


Ruby aggravated at Deb, talking to her friend Derek towards the climax of the movie.

I don’t like being left alone with my feelings like this, to speak and be ignored is horrible and I know that she cares, but I can’t stand that she isn’t responding.  I am in love with her, painfully so.  I want to get her out of my life.  I want to get leave her before she leaves me.  I also want her to stay in my life.  I want her to be my wife or love, I want her to care and be there for me.  I am needy and clingy, because of that I want to let her go completely.  I would just walk away as suddenly as I came, gone.  So anyway, suffer you little fuck, you self-serving business-prick, girl with a fucking wet spot for the next fling, putting her fucking twat on so much stupidity.  Her ego is the size of Texas, her inability to ever be wrong, or vulnerable, her constant drive and fear, her constantness, her extremity.  Fox behind the smile stealing chicken eggs, to not know.  Why put your lovers in my face, to hurt me?  Just selfish, just wanting to hang and have sex, annoyed that I am hurt which is why I want to leave you.  That I could feel so devastated, and her response is to be disgusted, or agitated.  If someone can’t comprehend or care that I care about them, I don’t want them to be around me.  She is annoyed that I am hurt, it is disgusting to be annoyed that someone is hurt.  

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